Depressed Again and Wardrobe Updates

I’m depressed again today, and the day has gone much like it did yesterday. I got stressed out trying to sort grapes for my breakfast. My husband took over for me. I’ve alternated bed and couch, watching Youtube videos or just lying in the dark. We did a camera test to look at possible setups for my own Youtube videos. I did, however, have a meltdown when I saw myself on camera. I guess I was under the impression that I was losing weight and feeling somewhat better lately. But my double chin and pissy attitude on camera showed otherwise. Around 4pm, I started sobbing. My husband came in and rubbed my feet in the dark bedroom. I felt despondent, yet consoled by this loving action.

I’ve been re-thinking the J. Crew T-shirts. Maybe I should keep the two white ones and layer them? But experience has taught me that buying too many multiples is a mistake. I also find the idea of having to wear both white T-shirts layered together excessively complicated.

My current T-shirts were bought in multiples. Six from Gap Factory, all pilled and worn out after six months and destined for textile recycling. And then the four swing tees from LOFT, one in electric blue that has been relegated to loungewear, and the three in neutral colors that I have become disenchanted with. The swing-style high-low hem thing is no longer working for me. It makes me feel very dramatic, and that seems an inappropriate feeling for a T-shirt, I think. Maybe if I called them “tops,” it would at least make more sense. But it doesn’t make me like them any more. They suddenly seem ridiculous- childish, even. It reminds me of the day I realized that I find puff sleeves and ruffles positively infantile. I eradicated all puffs and ruffles from my wardrobe immediately. This was also around the time I realized I hated dresses. So now I have, shockingly, no dresses at all.

At any rate, I do have five new T-shirts to replace the old ones. The 3-pack from ASOS in size 20 in gray, black, and white, and then the two navy Supima cotton tees in size 3X from J. Crew. I still stand by my argument in favor of these long-lasting gems, even though the white ones have been deemed redundant, too sheer, and too complicated to layer.

I’ve ousted a few other items from my wardrobe recently. Two black cotton camis by Lou & Grey at LOFT (the straps refused to stay up) and one pair of black linen joggers from Gap. I have some gray twill joggers from Gap that I love, and I had bought these linen ones thinking they were the same style. Unfortunately, I have come to admit that they are not, in fact, the same style. They have a more tapered leg, and contribute to my general sense that I am enormous. For the sake of the environment and my empty pocketbook, I have decided to list all of these items on Ebay. I set up a little Ebay store about a year and a half ago and I got really into selling thrifted items for a small profit. My husband was kind enough to do all the photography, so it is officially his business (though I did do much of the thrifting). At this point, I’ve stopped buying things to sell so I can focus more on blogging with what little energy I have. But it’s a great trick to be able to sell, and therefore recycle, any items I fall out of love with in my own wardrobe. And while they may not be designer brands, plus sizes do well regardless of brand, so I have that advantage as well. One last item that I’ll be selling is a black Vince cashmere sweater that I recently bought on Ebay. It turns out it’s not as soft as I had hoped, even after a good hand washing. But Vince is a sought-after brand on Ebay, so no great loss there.

This leaves the final roster of items left in my wardrobe as follows:

2 navy Supima cotton J. Crew tees

3 ASOS crew-neck tees (black, white, gray)

1 Cable & Gauge black and white striped tunic

1 oversized, silky, black tunic blouse (occasion wear)

2 black LOFT silky strappy camis

1 Vince gray cashmere sweater

1 Magaschoni black V-neck cashmere sweater

1 Cable & Gauge forest green sweater

1 purple-gray short sleeve cardigan

1 navy blue Gap men’s hoodie

1 Lands’ End black lightweight parka

1 Lauren Ralph Lauren black trench raincoat

2 pairs gray twill Gap joggers

1 pair dark blue D-Jeans jeggings

1 pair black D-jeans jeggings

1 pair black pull-on dress pants (occasion wear)

1 pair Lands’ End trouser jeans

1 pair Target linen-blend wide leg pants

2 pairs black Old Navy utility shorts

To see every item in my capsule wardrobe, click here.